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Sunday 19 July 2009
Monday 13 July 2009
Dying model plea 'he stabbed me'
Amy Leigh Barnes had been stabbed at least nine times
A young model dialled 999 as she lay dying, pleaded for help and said her boyfriend had "stabbed her to death", a court has heard.
Amy Leigh Barnes' father found her in a pool of blood at her grandmother's house in Bolton, Greater Manchester.
The 19-year-old's boyfriend, Ricardo Morrison, appearing at Manchester Crown Court, denies murder.
His mother, Pc Melda Wilks, of Rubery, West Midlands, also appeared in court to deny assisting her son.
The court heard that Ms Barnes, a part-time model and actress, had been killed with a kitchen knife in November last year.
Stuart Driver, prosecuting, recounted her desperate plea to the operator at the end of her 999 call.
'Penetrated liver'
"I'm dying. He's stabbed me to death. I'm dying. Please help me."
The operator asked who had stabbed her, and she said, 'My boyfriend', the court heard.
He said Ms Barnes had been slashed across the face and she had five wounds to her chest and four to her back, several of which had penetrated her liver.
At this point the defendant turned his back and ran towards the cells.
The hearing was temporarily adjourned.
Earlier the prosecutor told the court the couple had been together for around a year.
Her father turned up, opened the front door and found his daughter at the bottom of the stairs, a pool of blood beneath her - you can imagine his reaction
Stuart Driver, prosecuting
Mr Morrison had moved from his native Birmingham to live with Ms Barnes, first at her mother's house, then to share her grandmother's terraced home in Moss Street in Farnworth.
But there were serious problems in their relationship, the jury was told.
At 0100 BST on the day she was killed, Ms Barnes sent a text message from her mobile phone to Mr Morrison, saying, "You are out of my life for good", the court heard.
Later her grandmother left the house for work, leaving the young couple alone in the house.
Morrison, it is alleged, then attacked Ms Barnes, punching her, spraying an aerosol in her face and then hurting her arm in a door.
He then left to go into Bolton, locking her in the house.
While he was out "angry" text messages resumed between them, with Ms Barnes telling him that it was over.
'Evidence destroyed'
She rang her mother in tears, and it was agreed her father would come and pick her up.
Two minutes after that call ended she dialled 999 to say she had been "stabbed to death".
"Soon after she was attacked, her father turned up, opened the front door and found his daughter at the bottom of the stairs, a pool of blood beneath her.
"You can imagine his reaction, his panic," Mr Driver said.
Police and paramedics arrived and Ms Barnes was taken to the Royal Bolton Infirmary where she died three hours later.
Mr Morrison's 49-year-old mother, of Hollyhill Road, Rubery, is accused of assisting her son, by allowing evidence to be destroyed following the killing.
The trial continues.
A young model dialled 999 as she lay dying, pleaded for help and said her boyfriend had "stabbed her to death", a court has heard.
Amy Leigh Barnes' father found her in a pool of blood at her grandmother's house in Bolton, Greater Manchester.
The 19-year-old's boyfriend, Ricardo Morrison, appearing at Manchester Crown Court, denies murder.
His mother, Pc Melda Wilks, of Rubery, West Midlands, also appeared in court to deny assisting her son.
The court heard that Ms Barnes, a part-time model and actress, had been killed with a kitchen knife in November last year.
Stuart Driver, prosecuting, recounted her desperate plea to the operator at the end of her 999 call.
'Penetrated liver'
"I'm dying. He's stabbed me to death. I'm dying. Please help me."
The operator asked who had stabbed her, and she said, 'My boyfriend', the court heard.
He said Ms Barnes had been slashed across the face and she had five wounds to her chest and four to her back, several of which had penetrated her liver.
At this point the defendant turned his back and ran towards the cells.
The hearing was temporarily adjourned.
Earlier the prosecutor told the court the couple had been together for around a year.
Her father turned up, opened the front door and found his daughter at the bottom of the stairs, a pool of blood beneath her - you can imagine his reaction
Stuart Driver, prosecuting
Mr Morrison had moved from his native Birmingham to live with Ms Barnes, first at her mother's house, then to share her grandmother's terraced home in Moss Street in Farnworth.
But there were serious problems in their relationship, the jury was told.
At 0100 BST on the day she was killed, Ms Barnes sent a text message from her mobile phone to Mr Morrison, saying, "You are out of my life for good", the court heard.
Later her grandmother left the house for work, leaving the young couple alone in the house.
Morrison, it is alleged, then attacked Ms Barnes, punching her, spraying an aerosol in her face and then hurting her arm in a door.
He then left to go into Bolton, locking her in the house.
While he was out "angry" text messages resumed between them, with Ms Barnes telling him that it was over.
'Evidence destroyed'
She rang her mother in tears, and it was agreed her father would come and pick her up.
Two minutes after that call ended she dialled 999 to say she had been "stabbed to death".
"Soon after she was attacked, her father turned up, opened the front door and found his daughter at the bottom of the stairs, a pool of blood beneath her.
"You can imagine his reaction, his panic," Mr Driver said.
Police and paramedics arrived and Ms Barnes was taken to the Royal Bolton Infirmary where she died three hours later.
Mr Morrison's 49-year-old mother, of Hollyhill Road, Rubery, is accused of assisting her son, by allowing evidence to be destroyed following the killing.
The trial continues.
Wednesday 8 July 2009
Honey trap girl guilty of murder
Shakilus was kicked and punched and struck with a baseball bat
A teenage girl has been convicted of murdering a boy of 16 who was lured to his death in a "honey trap" plot.
Shakilus Townsend was stabbed to death by members of a gang in Thornton Heath, south London, last July after being lured to flats by Samantha Joseph, 16.
Joseph admitted persuading Shakilus to go to the flats but said she only thought he would be beaten up.
The girl's boyfriend Danny McLean, 18, was among six other teenagers also convicted of murder at the Old Bailey.
Brothers Tyrell Ellis, 19, and Don-Carlos Ellis, 18, from Thornton Heath, were convicted of murder, together with Andrew Johnson-Haynes, 18, from Croydon, south London.
Andre Thompson and Michael Akinfenwa, both aged 17 and both of Norwood, south London, were also convicted.
As Shakilus, from Deptford, south-east London, lay dying, he called out for his mother saying: "I don't want to die", the Old Bailey was told during the trial.
TEENAGE DEATHS
Full list of teenagers violently killed in the UK since January 2008
Lovestruck boy 'lured to his death'
Brian Altman QC, prosecuting, said Shakilus had been seeing the girl for six weeks.
He told the jury: "Shakilus had described her to his mother as 'beautiful' and he said to her that he was in love with her, he was even saying to his mother that he wanted to marry her, that she was his future wife."
But Joseph was still in love with McLean, who had dumped her, and "would have done anything to get him back," said Mr Altman.
"He [Danny McLean] had come to learn of her deception and by way of recompense she agreed to set up the hapless Shakilus Townsend in a honey trap with a lethal and tragic twist," he said.
On 3 July 2008, Joseph lured Shakilus to a cul-de-sac so he could be ambushed by the gang, Mr Altman said.
As the pair arrived in the area, the attackers were waiting for him and chased him as she kept in touch with McLean by mobile phone.
Shakilus was kicked and punched and struck with a baseball bat.
He died the next day as a result of a wound to his chest, which had "raked" across his liver causing a massive loss of blood, the court heard.
The defendants belonged to a gang in south London
Joseph later set about trying to "rub out" any trace of her relationship with Shakilus, deleting his online Bebo account and telling friends to erase his number from their phones.
In court she admitted agreeing to lead him into the ambush so he could get beaten up but said she did not realise he would be seriously hurt.
After the convictions, Shakilus's mother Nicola Dyer, 34, said: "He was popular and always had girlfriends, but the girl on trial was different.
"He really cared about her and I can't understand how she could have callously set him up and lured him to his death."
During the trial, McLean, from Thornton Heath, admitted under cross-examination that he routinely carried a knife, claiming he needed it to protect himself and his family.
Shakilus had himself been in trouble in the past for weapon possession and robbery and had been to see his youth offending team on the day of his death - but his mother said he was turning his life around.
The defendants will be sentenced at a later date.
A teenage girl has been convicted of murdering a boy of 16 who was lured to his death in a "honey trap" plot.
Shakilus Townsend was stabbed to death by members of a gang in Thornton Heath, south London, last July after being lured to flats by Samantha Joseph, 16.
Joseph admitted persuading Shakilus to go to the flats but said she only thought he would be beaten up.
The girl's boyfriend Danny McLean, 18, was among six other teenagers also convicted of murder at the Old Bailey.
Brothers Tyrell Ellis, 19, and Don-Carlos Ellis, 18, from Thornton Heath, were convicted of murder, together with Andrew Johnson-Haynes, 18, from Croydon, south London.
Andre Thompson and Michael Akinfenwa, both aged 17 and both of Norwood, south London, were also convicted.
As Shakilus, from Deptford, south-east London, lay dying, he called out for his mother saying: "I don't want to die", the Old Bailey was told during the trial.
TEENAGE DEATHS
Full list of teenagers violently killed in the UK since January 2008
Lovestruck boy 'lured to his death'
Brian Altman QC, prosecuting, said Shakilus had been seeing the girl for six weeks.
He told the jury: "Shakilus had described her to his mother as 'beautiful' and he said to her that he was in love with her, he was even saying to his mother that he wanted to marry her, that she was his future wife."
But Joseph was still in love with McLean, who had dumped her, and "would have done anything to get him back," said Mr Altman.
"He [Danny McLean] had come to learn of her deception and by way of recompense she agreed to set up the hapless Shakilus Townsend in a honey trap with a lethal and tragic twist," he said.
On 3 July 2008, Joseph lured Shakilus to a cul-de-sac so he could be ambushed by the gang, Mr Altman said.
As the pair arrived in the area, the attackers were waiting for him and chased him as she kept in touch with McLean by mobile phone.
Shakilus was kicked and punched and struck with a baseball bat.
He died the next day as a result of a wound to his chest, which had "raked" across his liver causing a massive loss of blood, the court heard.
The defendants belonged to a gang in south London
Joseph later set about trying to "rub out" any trace of her relationship with Shakilus, deleting his online Bebo account and telling friends to erase his number from their phones.
In court she admitted agreeing to lead him into the ambush so he could get beaten up but said she did not realise he would be seriously hurt.
After the convictions, Shakilus's mother Nicola Dyer, 34, said: "He was popular and always had girlfriends, but the girl on trial was different.
"He really cared about her and I can't understand how she could have callously set him up and lured him to his death."
During the trial, McLean, from Thornton Heath, admitted under cross-examination that he routinely carried a knife, claiming he needed it to protect himself and his family.
Shakilus had himself been in trouble in the past for weapon possession and robbery and had been to see his youth offending team on the day of his death - but his mother said he was turning his life around.
The defendants will be sentenced at a later date.
Tuesday 7 July 2009
Murder hunt over body in laneway
The man's body was found in a laneway at Upper Edward Street
A murder inquiry is under way after a man's body was discovered in Newry.
He was found in a laneway at Upper Edward Street in the city at about 0035 BST on Tuesday.
The city's mayor John Feehan, SDLP, said the victim is believed to have been aged in his 20s or 30s and may have been "severely beaten".
It is believed that the man was attacked as he walked along a pathway. His body was found in an alley behind Newry's swimming pool.
Mr Feehan said: "I've spoken to the chief inspector this morning and at this stage we don't believe it to be drug-related in any form," he said.
Police want to speak to anyone who was in the area of Upper Edward Street, Monaghan Street or Railway Avenue on Monday night.
They want to talk to anyone who saw an altercation or disturbance in those areas. No details about the identity of the man have been released.
A murder inquiry is under way after a man's body was discovered in Newry.
He was found in a laneway at Upper Edward Street in the city at about 0035 BST on Tuesday.
The city's mayor John Feehan, SDLP, said the victim is believed to have been aged in his 20s or 30s and may have been "severely beaten".
It is believed that the man was attacked as he walked along a pathway. His body was found in an alley behind Newry's swimming pool.
Mr Feehan said: "I've spoken to the chief inspector this morning and at this stage we don't believe it to be drug-related in any form," he said.
Police want to speak to anyone who was in the area of Upper Edward Street, Monaghan Street or Railway Avenue on Monday night.
They want to talk to anyone who saw an altercation or disturbance in those areas. No details about the identity of the man have been released.
7/7 mermorial
Very sad day today as it is the 7/7 memorial. It has been 4 years today since those poor innocent people lost their lives because of some stupid scum bag terrorists have a read.
Prince Charles has paid tribute to the families who lost loved ones in the 7 July 2005 London bombings, at a memorial in Hyde Park.
He said that their bravery "offered us hope for the future".
Prime Minister Gordon Brown and Minister for London Tessa Jowell joined the Prince of Wales at the unveiling of the 52 steel pillars.
Fifty-two people died after suicide bombers detonated explosives on board three Underground trains and a bus.
The victims' relatives at the unveiling said the permanent memorial, between the park's Lover's Walk and Park Lane, was a "fitting tribute".
Architects Carmody Groarke said the 3.5m (11.5ft) tall stainless steel pillars should convey the random nature of the loss of life - how it could have been anyone travelling in London that day.
The location of the memorial
Mrs Jowell said that each column represented "a unique person and a unique grief."
She added: "Each one casts a shadow just as they do - each one standing tall and proud just as they did, and each one will in an individual way absorb and reflect light just as they did."
Director Kevin Carmody said the firm worked closely with the families through monthly liaison meetings to ensure the finished product was what they required.
"It took a long time to get to the strong ideas like symbolising the single and collective loss of life," he said.
It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us
Saba Mozakka
Families key to memorial design
He said 26 of the stelae were grouped to represent those killed on the Underground near King's Cross.
Other clusters represented Tube bombing victims at Aldgate and Edgware Road, with the remainder symbolic of those who died on the number 30 bus in Tavistock Square.
"Hopefully people will have an almost magnetic propulsion towards it," said Mr Carmody.
He said it could be viewed from afar as a single entity but that as they moved closer, people would discover the significance of the four groupings and individual columns.
Though the stelae are anonymous, they are inscribed with the date, time and location of the bombings they represent.
"We're very happy that the families are pleased with the result," Mr Carmody added.
A representative of the bereaved families' group said: "The memorial is a fitting tribute, honouring the 52 lives lost on 7 July 2005, ensuring that the world will never forget them.
"It represents the enormity of our loss, both on a personal and public level.
'Horrific events'
"We hope this memorial will speak to visitors so they can understand the impact of these horrific events."
The stelae are grouped to represent those killed in each of the four sites
Enlarge Image
Thanks to the open casting process used to make the columns, with molten stainless-steel being poured into sand moulds, each one has a unique finish.
Saba Mozakka, 28, from Finchley, north London, was one of six family members to sit on a liaison board during the memorial's design.
Her mother, Behnaz Mozakka, 47, a biomedical officer, was killed on a Piccadilly line train near King's Cross station while commuting to work.
Ms Mozakka described the memorial as "truly incredible".
"I'm very happy. It's very poignant," she said.
"It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us."
Prince Charles and Mrs Jowell addressed the unveiling ceremony before the names of the victims were read out and a minute's silence was observed.
The prince then laid a wreath on behalf of the nation while the Duchess of Cornwall left a floral tribute for the families.
In addition to the prime minister and London Mayor Boris Johnson, Conservative leader David Cameron, Liberal Democrat leader Nick Clegg, former London Mayor Ken Livingstone and senior figures from the emergency services were present.
Families praise 7 July memorial
The memorial features one pillar for each of those killed in the bombings
Families of the victims of the 7 July 2005 London bombings have praised a permanent memorial created in their honour in Hyde Park.
Fifty-two people died and hundreds more were injured when four suicide bombers detonated backpacks at separate locations on public transport.
The memorial consists of 52 stainless steel pillars, each 3.5m (11.5ft) tall, grouped to represent the four attacks.
Members of the bereaved families group have said it is a "fitting tribute".
A plaque alongside the pillars - described as stelae - lists the names of those killed in the bombings.
'Enormity of loss'
A group representative said the memorial - close to the park's Lover's Walk - would ensure they were never forgotten.
"It represents the enormity of our loss, both on a personal and public level.
It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us
Saba Mozakka
"We hope this memorial will speak to visitors, so they can understand the impact of these horrific events."
The bombers struck aboard Tube trains near Edgware Road, King's Cross and Aldgate and on the number 30 bus at Tavistock Square, all in central London.
Behnaz Mozakka, 47, a biomedical officer, was killed on a Piccadilly line train near King's Cross station while commuting to work.
Her daughter Saba Mozakka, one of six family members to sit on a liaison board during the memorial's design process, described the finished product as "truly incredible".
"I'm very happy. It's very poignant," said the 28-year-old from Finchley, north London.
"It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us."
Ms Mozakka said she hoped people would feel passionate about the memorial when it is officially unveiled on Tuesday.
The open casting process used to create the columns means that although each is made using an identical mould, the finished product is unique.
Each features an inscription bearing the date, time and location of the bombing it represents.
Prince Charles has paid tribute to the families who lost loved ones in the 7 July 2005 London bombings, at a memorial in Hyde Park.
He said that their bravery "offered us hope for the future".
Prime Minister Gordon Brown and Minister for London Tessa Jowell joined the Prince of Wales at the unveiling of the 52 steel pillars.
Fifty-two people died after suicide bombers detonated explosives on board three Underground trains and a bus.
The victims' relatives at the unveiling said the permanent memorial, between the park's Lover's Walk and Park Lane, was a "fitting tribute".
Architects Carmody Groarke said the 3.5m (11.5ft) tall stainless steel pillars should convey the random nature of the loss of life - how it could have been anyone travelling in London that day.
The location of the memorial
Mrs Jowell said that each column represented "a unique person and a unique grief."
She added: "Each one casts a shadow just as they do - each one standing tall and proud just as they did, and each one will in an individual way absorb and reflect light just as they did."
Director Kevin Carmody said the firm worked closely with the families through monthly liaison meetings to ensure the finished product was what they required.
"It took a long time to get to the strong ideas like symbolising the single and collective loss of life," he said.
It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us
Saba Mozakka
Families key to memorial design
He said 26 of the stelae were grouped to represent those killed on the Underground near King's Cross.
Other clusters represented Tube bombing victims at Aldgate and Edgware Road, with the remainder symbolic of those who died on the number 30 bus in Tavistock Square.
"Hopefully people will have an almost magnetic propulsion towards it," said Mr Carmody.
He said it could be viewed from afar as a single entity but that as they moved closer, people would discover the significance of the four groupings and individual columns.
Though the stelae are anonymous, they are inscribed with the date, time and location of the bombings they represent.
"We're very happy that the families are pleased with the result," Mr Carmody added.
A representative of the bereaved families' group said: "The memorial is a fitting tribute, honouring the 52 lives lost on 7 July 2005, ensuring that the world will never forget them.
"It represents the enormity of our loss, both on a personal and public level.
'Horrific events'
"We hope this memorial will speak to visitors so they can understand the impact of these horrific events."
The stelae are grouped to represent those killed in each of the four sites
Enlarge Image
Thanks to the open casting process used to make the columns, with molten stainless-steel being poured into sand moulds, each one has a unique finish.
Saba Mozakka, 28, from Finchley, north London, was one of six family members to sit on a liaison board during the memorial's design.
Her mother, Behnaz Mozakka, 47, a biomedical officer, was killed on a Piccadilly line train near King's Cross station while commuting to work.
Ms Mozakka described the memorial as "truly incredible".
"I'm very happy. It's very poignant," she said.
"It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us."
Prince Charles and Mrs Jowell addressed the unveiling ceremony before the names of the victims were read out and a minute's silence was observed.
The prince then laid a wreath on behalf of the nation while the Duchess of Cornwall left a floral tribute for the families.
In addition to the prime minister and London Mayor Boris Johnson, Conservative leader David Cameron, Liberal Democrat leader Nick Clegg, former London Mayor Ken Livingstone and senior figures from the emergency services were present.
Families praise 7 July memorial
The memorial features one pillar for each of those killed in the bombings
Families of the victims of the 7 July 2005 London bombings have praised a permanent memorial created in their honour in Hyde Park.
Fifty-two people died and hundreds more were injured when four suicide bombers detonated backpacks at separate locations on public transport.
The memorial consists of 52 stainless steel pillars, each 3.5m (11.5ft) tall, grouped to represent the four attacks.
Members of the bereaved families group have said it is a "fitting tribute".
A plaque alongside the pillars - described as stelae - lists the names of those killed in the bombings.
'Enormity of loss'
A group representative said the memorial - close to the park's Lover's Walk - would ensure they were never forgotten.
"It represents the enormity of our loss, both on a personal and public level.
It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us
Saba Mozakka
"We hope this memorial will speak to visitors, so they can understand the impact of these horrific events."
The bombers struck aboard Tube trains near Edgware Road, King's Cross and Aldgate and on the number 30 bus at Tavistock Square, all in central London.
Behnaz Mozakka, 47, a biomedical officer, was killed on a Piccadilly line train near King's Cross station while commuting to work.
Her daughter Saba Mozakka, one of six family members to sit on a liaison board during the memorial's design process, described the finished product as "truly incredible".
"I'm very happy. It's very poignant," said the 28-year-old from Finchley, north London.
"It's an amazing tribute to my mum and the 51 others who were so viciously and brutally taken from us."
Ms Mozakka said she hoped people would feel passionate about the memorial when it is officially unveiled on Tuesday.
The open casting process used to create the columns means that although each is made using an identical mould, the finished product is unique.
Each features an inscription bearing the date, time and location of the bombing it represents.
Monday 6 July 2009
David Cameron leader apologizes for party’s anti-gay past
At last someone who cares!
David Cameron, the leader of the Conservatives in the British Parliament, has apologized for his party’s role in passing anti-gay legislation in the 1980’s, telling an LGBT pride gathering his party has changed when it comes to LGBT issues. If Labor Party losses in recent elections are any indication, Cameron could become Britain’s next prime minister. The Christian Institute reports:
Conservative leader David Cameron says his party was wrong to support Section 28 – a law banning local authorities from promoting homosexuality in schools.
Section 28 was introduced in the 1980s to protect children from inappropriate resources being pushed by councils controlled by what was dubbed at the time ‘the loony left’. It has since been repealed.
Speaking at a Conservative fundraiser to mark a gay pride event taking place in London this weekend, Mr Cameron told guests that his party’s attitudes towards ‘gay rights’ had changed.
He said: “Yes, we may have sometimes been slow and yes, we may have made mistakes, including Section 28, but the change has happened.”
He went on to say: “One of the things I was most proud of doing was standing up at that first party conference and saying commitment to marriage was an important thing whether it’s between a man and a woman, a man and a man or a woman and a woman.
“I am proud I said it and I am proud of my party for supporting me.”
David Cameron, the leader of the Conservatives in the British Parliament, has apologized for his party’s role in passing anti-gay legislation in the 1980’s, telling an LGBT pride gathering his party has changed when it comes to LGBT issues. If Labor Party losses in recent elections are any indication, Cameron could become Britain’s next prime minister. The Christian Institute reports:
Conservative leader David Cameron says his party was wrong to support Section 28 – a law banning local authorities from promoting homosexuality in schools.
Section 28 was introduced in the 1980s to protect children from inappropriate resources being pushed by councils controlled by what was dubbed at the time ‘the loony left’. It has since been repealed.
Speaking at a Conservative fundraiser to mark a gay pride event taking place in London this weekend, Mr Cameron told guests that his party’s attitudes towards ‘gay rights’ had changed.
He said: “Yes, we may have sometimes been slow and yes, we may have made mistakes, including Section 28, but the change has happened.”
He went on to say: “One of the things I was most proud of doing was standing up at that first party conference and saying commitment to marriage was an important thing whether it’s between a man and a woman, a man and a man or a woman and a woman.
“I am proud I said it and I am proud of my party for supporting me.”
Repulsive piece of human waste
This sick piece of shit should be cut to tiny pieces whilst still alive fucking bastard!
Jason Middleton has been placed on the sex offenders register
A man has been jailed for four years for raping a schoolgirl who later gave birth to his child.
Jason Middleton, 19, from Grangemouth, attacked the youngster while he was supposed to be looking after her.
The victim had her baby girl adopted and has tried to commit suicide a number of times.
Middleton had admitted raping the youngster on one occasion in West Lothian in September 2005. He has been placed on the sex offenders register.
He will also be supervised for two years after his release.
Judge Rita Rae QC described the case as "tragic" and told the High Court in Glasgow that it was with "regret" that a jail sentence had to be imposed.
She told Middleton: "You would appear to have fairly entrenched views on violence and about drug and alcohol abuse.
"You have used this to excuse your actions and you also appear to blame the complainer for instigating sexual contact."
'Highly dysfunctional'
Middleton, from Kerse Road, Grangemouth, initially told the police he had not had any sexual contact with the girl.
DNA was later taken from the accused and the child confirming that he was the father.
The court was told that Middleton, who was considered to be at a high risk of re-offending, was brought up in a "desperate, depressing and highly dysfunctional family situation".
Richard Goddard, defending, asked for an alternative to jail, adding that Middleton would benefit from "considerable psychological input".
Judge Rae said that due to Middleton's attitude, the effect on the girl and the absence of any other realistic options, prison had to be imposed.
Jason Middleton has been placed on the sex offenders register
A man has been jailed for four years for raping a schoolgirl who later gave birth to his child.
Jason Middleton, 19, from Grangemouth, attacked the youngster while he was supposed to be looking after her.
The victim had her baby girl adopted and has tried to commit suicide a number of times.
Middleton had admitted raping the youngster on one occasion in West Lothian in September 2005. He has been placed on the sex offenders register.
He will also be supervised for two years after his release.
Judge Rita Rae QC described the case as "tragic" and told the High Court in Glasgow that it was with "regret" that a jail sentence had to be imposed.
She told Middleton: "You would appear to have fairly entrenched views on violence and about drug and alcohol abuse.
"You have used this to excuse your actions and you also appear to blame the complainer for instigating sexual contact."
'Highly dysfunctional'
Middleton, from Kerse Road, Grangemouth, initially told the police he had not had any sexual contact with the girl.
DNA was later taken from the accused and the child confirming that he was the father.
The court was told that Middleton, who was considered to be at a high risk of re-offending, was brought up in a "desperate, depressing and highly dysfunctional family situation".
Richard Goddard, defending, asked for an alternative to jail, adding that Middleton would benefit from "considerable psychological input".
Judge Rae said that due to Middleton's attitude, the effect on the girl and the absence of any other realistic options, prison had to be imposed.
Convicted killers still at large
This is quite scary lol!
Hundreds of offenders who should be in prison remain at large
Nearly 1,000 offenders who should have been sent back to prison are still at large, according to Justice Secretary Jack Straw.
They include 19 convicted murderers who have not been returned to custody.
Also free are rapists and people convicted of manslaughter who were on licence from jails in England and Wales between January 1999 and March 2009.
The Conservatives said the figures would shock the public and accused the government of putting people at risk.
They blamed the government's Labour's "reckless" early release scheme and "lax approach" to probation.
Figures published by the National Offender Management Services (NOMS) show 935 offenders whose licences had been revoked had not been returned to jail as they should have been.
As well as murderers, those still free include two people convicted of manslaughter and 26 others convicted of sexual offences, including 12 for rape or attempted rape.
FREE TO COMMIT MURDER
Dano Sonnex should have been in prison when he tortured and murdered two young French students in London.
Released on licence after serving part of an eight-year sentence for violent crimes, the 23-year-old drug user was accused of further offences, and should have been recalled to jail.
But blunders by the probation service meant he was free to walk the streets - and, with an accomplice, stab Gabriel Ferez and Laurent Bonomo to death.
The BBC's Home Affairs correspondent Danny Shaw said licences might be revoked if offenders regularly failed to attend probation or other appointments connected with their licence conditions.
Offenders might also be recalled for failing to live at an address approved by the probation service, or if they were suspected of or charged with further offences.
Mr Straw said the recall system was working well, with less than 1% of recalled offenders not returned to jail between 1999 and 2008.
"Ten times more offenders are being recalled to prison each year than before 1997 as a result of our tough new recall regime," he said.
"Only about 10,000 offenders were recalled in the 15 years between 1984 and 1999 - when our new measures were implemented - and the old system was cumbersome and court based.
"Since then, 92,000 offenders have been recalled.
"Of those recalled between 1999 and June 2008, just 0.7% of offenders have not been apprehended.
"But we are far from complacent and recognise that the system has to be strengthened further, not least in respect of those serious offenders who remain at large."
'Lost track'
But Shadow Justice Secretary Dominic Grieve said: "The whole point of releasing prisoners on licence is that they can be monitored and returned to prison if they commit a breach.
"The public will be shocked that the government has lost track of almost 1,000 criminal fugitives - including murderers, paedophiles and sex offenders.
Ministers claim these offenders can be recalled at any time, but worryingly, some have managed to evade justice for up to a quarter of a century
David Howarth, Liberal Democrat Justice spokesman
"Labour's reckless early release scheme and lax approach to probation is putting the public at greater risk. Cuts to frontline probation services will only make this situation even worse."
The Ministry of Justice also confirmed a further 19 offenders whose licences had been revoked between 1984 and 1999 were also not sent back to prison - though procedures were different in this period, said our correspondent.
Liberal Democrat justice spokesman David Howarth demanded ministers come to parliament to explain the situation.
He said: "Rather than slipping these figures out hoping no one will notice, ministers should come to Parliament and explain why nearly a thousand recalled prisoners are being allowed to run free.
"The government's failed prison policy, which has left our prisons bursting at the seams, has led to thousands of prisoners being let out early.
"Ministers claim these offenders can be recalled at any time, but worryingly, some have managed to evade justice for up to a quarter of a century."
Licence criteria
The Criminal Justice Act 1991, which only applies to offences committed before 4 April 2005, provides for the automatic release of prisoners at the halfway point of their sentence for those serving up to four years.
The Act also provides for automatic release at the two-thirds point of the sentence for those serving four years or more, subject to probation supervision until the three quarter point of sentence.
The Criminal Justice Act 2003, which applies to offences committed on or after 4 April 2005, provides for the automatic release of prisoners at the halfway point, with probation supervision for those serving 12 months or more until the end of their sentence.
The data on recalled offenders was published following an audit of the work of police, probation areas and the United Kingdom Border Agency.
It was carried out by NOMS, which has responsibility for licence revocation policy.
As part of the audit, NOMS wrote to each police force and Probation Area in England and Wales with a list for each area of all offenders who have been recalled but have yet to be returned to custody.
'Open justice'
Police and probation officers were asked to check the list and examine whether some offenders might be removed - because, for example, they had been returned to custody under a different name or had died.
They were also asked to renew their efforts efforts to return these individuals into custody.
The Ministry of Justice spokeswoman said that this was the first time the government has published this information.
"It is part of a commitment to open justice and ensuring communities have as much information as possible about the Criminal Justice System," she said.
Following the audit, the Association of Chief Police Officers (ACPO) has written to all police forces in England and Wales, asking them to take priority action to arrest and return to custody all those offenders on the list who had previously been convicted of sexual or violent offences.
Hundreds of offenders who should be in prison remain at large
Nearly 1,000 offenders who should have been sent back to prison are still at large, according to Justice Secretary Jack Straw.
They include 19 convicted murderers who have not been returned to custody.
Also free are rapists and people convicted of manslaughter who were on licence from jails in England and Wales between January 1999 and March 2009.
The Conservatives said the figures would shock the public and accused the government of putting people at risk.
They blamed the government's Labour's "reckless" early release scheme and "lax approach" to probation.
Figures published by the National Offender Management Services (NOMS) show 935 offenders whose licences had been revoked had not been returned to jail as they should have been.
As well as murderers, those still free include two people convicted of manslaughter and 26 others convicted of sexual offences, including 12 for rape or attempted rape.
FREE TO COMMIT MURDER
Dano Sonnex should have been in prison when he tortured and murdered two young French students in London.
Released on licence after serving part of an eight-year sentence for violent crimes, the 23-year-old drug user was accused of further offences, and should have been recalled to jail.
But blunders by the probation service meant he was free to walk the streets - and, with an accomplice, stab Gabriel Ferez and Laurent Bonomo to death.
The BBC's Home Affairs correspondent Danny Shaw said licences might be revoked if offenders regularly failed to attend probation or other appointments connected with their licence conditions.
Offenders might also be recalled for failing to live at an address approved by the probation service, or if they were suspected of or charged with further offences.
Mr Straw said the recall system was working well, with less than 1% of recalled offenders not returned to jail between 1999 and 2008.
"Ten times more offenders are being recalled to prison each year than before 1997 as a result of our tough new recall regime," he said.
"Only about 10,000 offenders were recalled in the 15 years between 1984 and 1999 - when our new measures were implemented - and the old system was cumbersome and court based.
"Since then, 92,000 offenders have been recalled.
"Of those recalled between 1999 and June 2008, just 0.7% of offenders have not been apprehended.
"But we are far from complacent and recognise that the system has to be strengthened further, not least in respect of those serious offenders who remain at large."
'Lost track'
But Shadow Justice Secretary Dominic Grieve said: "The whole point of releasing prisoners on licence is that they can be monitored and returned to prison if they commit a breach.
"The public will be shocked that the government has lost track of almost 1,000 criminal fugitives - including murderers, paedophiles and sex offenders.
Ministers claim these offenders can be recalled at any time, but worryingly, some have managed to evade justice for up to a quarter of a century
David Howarth, Liberal Democrat Justice spokesman
"Labour's reckless early release scheme and lax approach to probation is putting the public at greater risk. Cuts to frontline probation services will only make this situation even worse."
The Ministry of Justice also confirmed a further 19 offenders whose licences had been revoked between 1984 and 1999 were also not sent back to prison - though procedures were different in this period, said our correspondent.
Liberal Democrat justice spokesman David Howarth demanded ministers come to parliament to explain the situation.
He said: "Rather than slipping these figures out hoping no one will notice, ministers should come to Parliament and explain why nearly a thousand recalled prisoners are being allowed to run free.
"The government's failed prison policy, which has left our prisons bursting at the seams, has led to thousands of prisoners being let out early.
"Ministers claim these offenders can be recalled at any time, but worryingly, some have managed to evade justice for up to a quarter of a century."
Licence criteria
The Criminal Justice Act 1991, which only applies to offences committed before 4 April 2005, provides for the automatic release of prisoners at the halfway point of their sentence for those serving up to four years.
The Act also provides for automatic release at the two-thirds point of the sentence for those serving four years or more, subject to probation supervision until the three quarter point of sentence.
The Criminal Justice Act 2003, which applies to offences committed on or after 4 April 2005, provides for the automatic release of prisoners at the halfway point, with probation supervision for those serving 12 months or more until the end of their sentence.
The data on recalled offenders was published following an audit of the work of police, probation areas and the United Kingdom Border Agency.
It was carried out by NOMS, which has responsibility for licence revocation policy.
As part of the audit, NOMS wrote to each police force and Probation Area in England and Wales with a list for each area of all offenders who have been recalled but have yet to be returned to custody.
'Open justice'
Police and probation officers were asked to check the list and examine whether some offenders might be removed - because, for example, they had been returned to custody under a different name or had died.
They were also asked to renew their efforts efforts to return these individuals into custody.
The Ministry of Justice spokeswoman said that this was the first time the government has published this information.
"It is part of a commitment to open justice and ensuring communities have as much information as possible about the Criminal Justice System," she said.
Following the audit, the Association of Chief Police Officers (ACPO) has written to all police forces in England and Wales, asking them to take priority action to arrest and return to custody all those offenders on the list who had previously been convicted of sexual or violent offences.
The girl the world forgot!
Lying on her bed, the memory still running through her head.
Trying to forget, she cant get rid of the sickening scent.
Her body broken and bent.
Her one and only protector, she had been betrayed by the one who was supposed to be there.
Covered in blood, emotionally crippled, confused, scared, alone.
She climbs into the shower, she's numb, to numb to feel the frosty wind blowing across her naked body, numb to the freezing water running down her body.
She punches the wall trying to feel something, anything. She gets out the shower walks into her room, crys, she wants to die, she wants someone to care, this pain she can not bare alone.
No one to help, no one to care. In this cruel world alone, no place to call home. The girl the world forgot.
She goes unnoticed, her eyes out of focus. Her stare cold and blank. Her heart is frozen, unloved, unwanted. He will notice her just once and never again, she will notice him forever, constantly on her mind.
His voice speaks to her whispering comforting words, untrue, imagined, hopelesly devoted, eternally destracted, delirious.
The girl the world forgot!
Trying to forget, she cant get rid of the sickening scent.
Her body broken and bent.
Her one and only protector, she had been betrayed by the one who was supposed to be there.
Covered in blood, emotionally crippled, confused, scared, alone.
She climbs into the shower, she's numb, to numb to feel the frosty wind blowing across her naked body, numb to the freezing water running down her body.
She punches the wall trying to feel something, anything. She gets out the shower walks into her room, crys, she wants to die, she wants someone to care, this pain she can not bare alone.
No one to help, no one to care. In this cruel world alone, no place to call home. The girl the world forgot.
She goes unnoticed, her eyes out of focus. Her stare cold and blank. Her heart is frozen, unloved, unwanted. He will notice her just once and never again, she will notice him forever, constantly on her mind.
His voice speaks to her whispering comforting words, untrue, imagined, hopelesly devoted, eternally destracted, delirious.
The girl the world forgot!
Sunday 5 July 2009
Chimps escape zoo
Zoo's 30 chimps escape enclosure
The animals are known to be strong and intelligent
Thirty chimpanzees have escaped from their enclosure at a zoo in Cheshire, forcing it to be closed.
The animals found their way into a nearby keepers' area, where their food is usually prepared, at about 1240 BST, Chester Zoo said.
A spokeswoman for the zoo said the animals had been contained and the zoo was closed as a security measure.
How the animals came to leave their quarters is not known but they were not in an area accessed by the public.
Sarah Jones, from Chester, was among the visitors at the zoo when the animals left their enclosure.
"My two young boys had only just gone into the chimpanzee house when we heard terrifying loud noises," she said.
I saw keepers running into the house and visitors were asked to head to other areas of the zoo
Sarah JonesChester Zoo visitor
"The chimpanzees were large animals and they seemed very upset about something, they were making a frightening noise, I thought something was wrong, so we made our way out of the building.
"I saw keepers running into the house and visitors were asked to head to other areas of the zoo.
"We ended up being stuck in the cafe area for quite a while."
Chimpanzees are considered to be the most intelligent non-human primate. They are mainly terrestrial, but do spend time in the trees.
A zoo spokeswoman described them as very strong animals but said there had been no injuries to any member of the public or to staff.
"The decision to evacuate the zoo was purely taken as a precautionary measure," the zoo said in a statement.
"We apologise for any inconvenience this has caused to our visitors and would thank them for their full co-operation and patience."
The animals are known to be strong and intelligent
Thirty chimpanzees have escaped from their enclosure at a zoo in Cheshire, forcing it to be closed.
The animals found their way into a nearby keepers' area, where their food is usually prepared, at about 1240 BST, Chester Zoo said.
A spokeswoman for the zoo said the animals had been contained and the zoo was closed as a security measure.
How the animals came to leave their quarters is not known but they were not in an area accessed by the public.
Sarah Jones, from Chester, was among the visitors at the zoo when the animals left their enclosure.
"My two young boys had only just gone into the chimpanzee house when we heard terrifying loud noises," she said.
I saw keepers running into the house and visitors were asked to head to other areas of the zoo
Sarah JonesChester Zoo visitor
"The chimpanzees were large animals and they seemed very upset about something, they were making a frightening noise, I thought something was wrong, so we made our way out of the building.
"I saw keepers running into the house and visitors were asked to head to other areas of the zoo.
"We ended up being stuck in the cafe area for quite a while."
Chimpanzees are considered to be the most intelligent non-human primate. They are mainly terrestrial, but do spend time in the trees.
A zoo spokeswoman described them as very strong animals but said there had been no injuries to any member of the public or to staff.
"The decision to evacuate the zoo was purely taken as a precautionary measure," the zoo said in a statement.
"We apologise for any inconvenience this has caused to our visitors and would thank them for their full co-operation and patience."
Tuesday 30 June 2009
Raped
He screams, but no one hears.
His been locked away with all his fears.
He cries as this disfigured creature takes his innocence.
His family cold to him, like him on the inside.
He suddenly wakes screaming.
He thanks God it was just a dream.
Only it wasn't a dream.
This poor unloved boy was raped.
His dignity gone.
Too scared to tell because no one believes this could happen to a man.
The problem is it does happen and to often nothing is done.
No justice, and now that boy is gone!
His been locked away with all his fears.
He cries as this disfigured creature takes his innocence.
His family cold to him, like him on the inside.
He suddenly wakes screaming.
He thanks God it was just a dream.
Only it wasn't a dream.
This poor unloved boy was raped.
His dignity gone.
Too scared to tell because no one believes this could happen to a man.
The problem is it does happen and to often nothing is done.
No justice, and now that boy is gone!
Monday 29 June 2009
Madoff gets 150 years (yes really)
Bernard Madoff has been given the maximum prison sentence of 150 years for masterminding a massive fraud that robbed investors of $65bn (£40bn). When Madoff was given this sentence it was greeted with cheers and applause in the packed court room. US District Judge Denny Chin said he wanted to send a message that Madoff's crimes were "extraordinarily evil". Madoff's lawyer had sought a more lenient sentence of 12 years.
Judge Chin gave Madoff the maximum sentence on all 11 charges, which included securities fraud and money laundering. "Here the message must be sent that Mr Madoff's crimes were extraordinarily evil and that this kind of manipulation of the system is not just a bloodless crime that takes place on paper, but one instead that takes a staggering toll," Judge Chin said.He said "the breach of trust was massive" and pointed out that no friends, family or other supporters had submitted any letters on Mr Madoff's behalf.
Madoff has 10 days to decide whether to appeal.
His wife Ruth said in a statement released after the hearing that she felt "betrayed and confused".
"The man who committed this horrible fraud is not the man whom I have known for all these years," she said.
'Legacy of shame'
Before the sentencing, Madoff apologised for the "legacy of shame" he had brought on his family and the industry.
"I'm responsible for a great deal of suffering and pain, I understand that," said Madoff, who will spend the rest of his life in prison.
Judith Welling and husband DeWitt Baker: 'We're too old to go back to work'
He turned directly to those in court who had been affected and said he was sorry.
A number of them had earlier given emotional statements. One had broken down in tears during their testimony.
"Life has been a living hell. It feels like the nightmare we can't wake from," said Carla Hirshhorn.
"May your jail cell be your coffin," Michael Schwartz told Madoff.
The BBC's North America Business Correspondent Michelle Fleury said the length of the sentence was unexpected.
Victims would be pleased, she said, but this wasn't the end for them as they are still trying to recover some of their money.
"I think it was certainly a justified sentence," said Judith Welling, who lost $2.5m along with her husband.
"He's trying to send a message to the world that this sort of behaviour will not be tolerated," she added.
Thousands defrauded
Bernard Madoff admitted defrauding thousands of investors in a Ponzi scheme which he said had been running since the early 1990s.
Madoff started his financial career aged 22 with $5,000 from money made from summer holiday jobs such as working as a garden sprinkler installer in New York.
He then set up Bernard L Madoff Investment Securities in 1960.
His firm became one of the largest market-makers - matching buyers and sellers of stocks - and Madoff served as chairman of the Nasdaq stock exchange.
Madoff's firm was investigated eight times by the US Securities and Exchange Commission over the past 16 years, because it made exceptional returns.
WHAT IS A PONZI SCHEME?
A fraudulent investment scheme paying investors from money paid in by other investors rather than real profits
Named after Charles Ponzi who notoriously used the technique in the United States in the 1920s
Differs from pyramid selling in that individuals all tend to invest with the same person
But it was the global recession which effectively prompted Madoff's demise as investors, hit by the downturn, tried to withdraw about $7bn from his funds and he could not find the money to cover it.
The list of Madoff's victims includes film director Steven Spielberg's charitable foundation, Wunderkinder.
UK banks were also among the victims with HSBC Holdings saying it had exposure of around $1bn. Other corporate victims were Royal Bank of Scotland and Man Group and Japan's Nomura Holdings.
But it is not just the elite and large firms who were victims of the fraud.
School teachers, farmers, mechanics and many others have also lost money.
Judge Chin gave Madoff the maximum sentence on all 11 charges, which included securities fraud and money laundering. "Here the message must be sent that Mr Madoff's crimes were extraordinarily evil and that this kind of manipulation of the system is not just a bloodless crime that takes place on paper, but one instead that takes a staggering toll," Judge Chin said.He said "the breach of trust was massive" and pointed out that no friends, family or other supporters had submitted any letters on Mr Madoff's behalf.
Madoff has 10 days to decide whether to appeal.
His wife Ruth said in a statement released after the hearing that she felt "betrayed and confused".
"The man who committed this horrible fraud is not the man whom I have known for all these years," she said.
'Legacy of shame'
Before the sentencing, Madoff apologised for the "legacy of shame" he had brought on his family and the industry.
"I'm responsible for a great deal of suffering and pain, I understand that," said Madoff, who will spend the rest of his life in prison.
Judith Welling and husband DeWitt Baker: 'We're too old to go back to work'
He turned directly to those in court who had been affected and said he was sorry.
A number of them had earlier given emotional statements. One had broken down in tears during their testimony.
"Life has been a living hell. It feels like the nightmare we can't wake from," said Carla Hirshhorn.
"May your jail cell be your coffin," Michael Schwartz told Madoff.
The BBC's North America Business Correspondent Michelle Fleury said the length of the sentence was unexpected.
Victims would be pleased, she said, but this wasn't the end for them as they are still trying to recover some of their money.
"I think it was certainly a justified sentence," said Judith Welling, who lost $2.5m along with her husband.
"He's trying to send a message to the world that this sort of behaviour will not be tolerated," she added.
Thousands defrauded
Bernard Madoff admitted defrauding thousands of investors in a Ponzi scheme which he said had been running since the early 1990s.
Madoff started his financial career aged 22 with $5,000 from money made from summer holiday jobs such as working as a garden sprinkler installer in New York.
He then set up Bernard L Madoff Investment Securities in 1960.
His firm became one of the largest market-makers - matching buyers and sellers of stocks - and Madoff served as chairman of the Nasdaq stock exchange.
Madoff's firm was investigated eight times by the US Securities and Exchange Commission over the past 16 years, because it made exceptional returns.
WHAT IS A PONZI SCHEME?
A fraudulent investment scheme paying investors from money paid in by other investors rather than real profits
Named after Charles Ponzi who notoriously used the technique in the United States in the 1920s
Differs from pyramid selling in that individuals all tend to invest with the same person
But it was the global recession which effectively prompted Madoff's demise as investors, hit by the downturn, tried to withdraw about $7bn from his funds and he could not find the money to cover it.
The list of Madoff's victims includes film director Steven Spielberg's charitable foundation, Wunderkinder.
UK banks were also among the victims with HSBC Holdings saying it had exposure of around $1bn. Other corporate victims were Royal Bank of Scotland and Man Group and Japan's Nomura Holdings.
But it is not just the elite and large firms who were victims of the fraud.
School teachers, farmers, mechanics and many others have also lost money.
My lover By Otep Shamaya
This isone of my faveourite poems from Oteps Shaymaya's book Caught Screaming which you can purchase on www.lulu.com
my lover.
she knows just how to please me...
in love and lust.
I am under her spell...
((neurotic despot of the holy wurd))
I worship daily.
in sacramental sex seances
that lasr a day.
my lover, my muse.
I am your loyal disciple.
I live for your climaxes.
simply, I am obsessed...
not only as compulsion, but for the very being of it...the form,the skeletal structure, the breath that inflates its lungs, the tickle that propagates a giggle, the flesh searing screams of unimagined satisfacation...
not only. but yes
more.more.more.
its the construction of it, the pathway to the unknown, thru the garden, thru the gate, to the sweet forgotton place of bewilderment & fascination. i am the subnation. the illness they ignore. godess of the underworld. she-star, warlock, satan, overload, waiting to be born.
I am in love with a poem, I married her, & made soft little promises we disguised as children. I have a happy life, of secrets & ceremony. I am having an affair. with music. passionate, wild & dangerous. with her, I can do things that my poem considers forbidden. unspeakable things that feel soooooo good that are once primitive and infinite.
my addiction is art. everyday I am desperate for a fix. one more hit. one more trip. where my answers can be deciphered. where my visions can be heightened. me, pilgrim, prophet, politician, poet ... spiritual archeologist. digging deeper and deeper. for the boney remains. i need it. my religion of affliction. to survive. to remain alive. it's ok, it's just fine. I'm not hurting anyone. (really) its just what I need to do to get by.
my lover.
she knows just how to please me...
in love and lust.
I am under her spell...
((neurotic despot of the holy wurd))
I worship daily.
in sacramental sex seances
that lasr a day.
my lover, my muse.
I am your loyal disciple.
I live for your climaxes.
simply, I am obsessed...
not only as compulsion, but for the very being of it...the form,the skeletal structure, the breath that inflates its lungs, the tickle that propagates a giggle, the flesh searing screams of unimagined satisfacation...
not only. but yes
more.more.more.
its the construction of it, the pathway to the unknown, thru the garden, thru the gate, to the sweet forgotton place of bewilderment & fascination. i am the subnation. the illness they ignore. godess of the underworld. she-star, warlock, satan, overload, waiting to be born.
I am in love with a poem, I married her, & made soft little promises we disguised as children. I have a happy life, of secrets & ceremony. I am having an affair. with music. passionate, wild & dangerous. with her, I can do things that my poem considers forbidden. unspeakable things that feel soooooo good that are once primitive and infinite.
my addiction is art. everyday I am desperate for a fix. one more hit. one more trip. where my answers can be deciphered. where my visions can be heightened. me, pilgrim, prophet, politician, poet ... spiritual archeologist. digging deeper and deeper. for the boney remains. i need it. my religion of affliction. to survive. to remain alive. it's ok, it's just fine. I'm not hurting anyone. (really) its just what I need to do to get by.
Haunting me
I was seven.
Only young, so innocent.
I trusted him, he made me trust him.
Why did he di it, he didnt have to do it.
10 years on I still cant forget.
The pain, the shame.
I still hear him whispering.
"It's ok, shh don't cry".
What did I do to deserve that?
For many years that thought ran through my head.
But now I know, I know it wasn't my fault.
It was all your fault.
You hurt me, betrayed me.
You got away with it.
You broke me.
You still haunt me every night.
Please leave my thoughts, my dreams.
Please I'm begging you please!
Only young, so innocent.
I trusted him, he made me trust him.
Why did he di it, he didnt have to do it.
10 years on I still cant forget.
The pain, the shame.
I still hear him whispering.
"It's ok, shh don't cry".
What did I do to deserve that?
For many years that thought ran through my head.
But now I know, I know it wasn't my fault.
It was all your fault.
You hurt me, betrayed me.
You got away with it.
You broke me.
You still haunt me every night.
Please leave my thoughts, my dreams.
Please I'm begging you please!
Saturday 27 June 2009
Beautiful Stranger
As I sit all alone in the frosty wind, thinking of the unknown.
As I sit and wait for deaths sickening grip to choose my fate.
As I sit she stares, her hazel eyes looking straight through me.
I smile at her, no expression in her beautiful pale face.
I think to myself who is this beautiful stranger?
I start to look deeper into her hazel eyes.
I then realise she is also waiting the reaper.
Suddenly I see she's lost, alone.
Sudenly I see who this beautiful stranger is.
Suddenly I see she's not beautiful she is me.
Gunman open fires in a restaurant
In West London a man and a 15 year old boy are recovering from gunshot wounds, after a gunman open fired in a packed restaurant. Lucky neither of them suffred life-threating wounds. The gunman who was carrying two guns chased the man into the restaurant and shot him in the leg. Former S club 7 member Rachel Stevens was dining at the restaurant when the shootings happened. Stevens was having dinner with her family none of them was hurt. An eyewitness said that they saw people "screaming and throwing themselves down on the floor and bullet holes could now be seen". BBC Chief economics correspondant Hugh Pym was also there. He said "I immediatly went to ground and pulled my 15 year old son under the table. "We were aware of a guy running through he didnt appear as if he had a weapon- he appeared as a victim". He continued "Obviuously there was a lot of broken glass and people gradually emerged from under the tables". "People were in shock and were wailing from shock more than anything else".Billy Osbourne was also in the restaurant and saw the first man run in.
"Then all of a sudden a guy in a motorbike helmet came in - he had two automatic pistols and he starts firing at the guy.
"As soon as I smelled the cordite I was under the table.
"Everyone was screaming and hitting the deck.
"It was unbelievable - it was a packed restaurant and it does not appear anybody [among the diners] was hurt."
Harry Morgan's was established in 1948 by a London butcher and has been shortlisted in the Evening Standard Restaurant Awards.
No aressts have been made yet.
"Then all of a sudden a guy in a motorbike helmet came in - he had two automatic pistols and he starts firing at the guy.
"As soon as I smelled the cordite I was under the table.
"Everyone was screaming and hitting the deck.
"It was unbelievable - it was a packed restaurant and it does not appear anybody [among the diners] was hurt."
Harry Morgan's was established in 1948 by a London butcher and has been shortlisted in the Evening Standard Restaurant Awards.
No aressts have been made yet.
Friday 26 June 2009
Neda and Iran
At 19:05 June 20th a girl named Neda was shot. She was standing with her father watching the protests. It took one shot to kill Neda but its going to take 10000000000s of people to stop what is going on in Iran right now. We must all support Iranian people in any way possible please wear green. Neda has now become the rallying cry for Iran lets all make sure she did not die in vain.
Also my faveourite blogger/poet/singer is starting a project she wants people to send in a picture of yourself where it says I am Neda We are Neda. Visit http://www.imnotamonster.com/
Also my faveourite blogger/poet/singer is starting a project she wants people to send in a picture of yourself where it says I am Neda We are Neda. Visit http://www.imnotamonster.com/
Introduction to destruction!
Hello and welcome to your Introduction to destruction.
First of the basics;
Name: Sarah Ashfield
DOB:7/2/1992
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Lesbian
So hmmm my interests well I love writing poems and drawing. I love music mainly metal and rock. A few bands/singers I like are Otep, Slipknot, In this moment, Evanescense, Placebo, Papa roach, Disturbed and loads more. I love my family and the friends I have left I also love my girlfriend.
I love to debate and love to hear about things going on around the world.
Well for now my friends, enemies and readers thats all for my Introduction to destruction.
First of the basics;
Name: Sarah Ashfield
DOB:7/2/1992
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Lesbian
So hmmm my interests well I love writing poems and drawing. I love music mainly metal and rock. A few bands/singers I like are Otep, Slipknot, In this moment, Evanescense, Placebo, Papa roach, Disturbed and loads more. I love my family and the friends I have left I also love my girlfriend.
I love to debate and love to hear about things going on around the world.
Well for now my friends, enemies and readers thats all for my Introduction to destruction.
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